I mean that I spent 20 years hiding from the administrative work required by a DIY artist to manage their career., because I could not manage it mentally. No one was doing it for me, and I couldn't do it because I cannot contain the information in my mind long enough to act on it. But For those 20 years, I did not know that my problems were due to poor executive function due to my autism and hyper-focus/inattention as a result of my ADHD. I did not know because I was only diagnosed last year. Hope that helps!